HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ;pPp~

this was my 1st birthday :$
"you can get married where ever when ever who ever you want"
NO it wasn't my words it MOM'S and she was kidding of course...well now I'm turning to 21 years old ... over sure there is nothing exiting about being older at all.
growing up means more responsibilities pressure blames and helping yourself by yourself LOL.
24.9.1987was my born day :$
i hate saying this BUT these are my last words as a 20 years old lady :\

hey :)

long time no see

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i have no idea what to talk about LOL no realy :)

i've got a new studio as a gradutation gift from my sweet DAD i just love'm thanks daad :**~

any way since the day my new studio arrived i didn't stop TRYING it LOL and im loving it

my dad was my first model then my little brother oh he's so cute and i wont stop portraits it's realy my passion!

i love having a hobby :$

so if u need a photoshoot from moi :p ur more than welcome hehehe

why dear?

well this is my first words in blogger and i have no idea what to say or talk about heheh emmmm let's see blogger will be my new page to write my diaries in every day im going to write about something new something i've been thinking of maybe it seems boring to you but you dont have to read it hehehe :p

i have some issues trusting people
although i trusted one of my best friends or more than a friend i trusted'm after a really long time knowing him
he knew me.. he knew what makes me mad what makes me cry what makes me feel happy and smile
and i knew him i cared about him and his feelings
after all that he came and make a stupid mistake
KNOWING that its oversure going to make me feel BAD !!
if i was him i will never ever do what he did cuz i know it will make him feel
sad
we talked about it
we discussed it together
but he did it!!
when i asked'm why did you do that?
he said " i don't know i just don't know why did i do it"
Oh really!!
sweety
you cant just say that!!
you cant just hurt me and simply say i dont know why
and what makes me feel horrible that before few days we had a fight
so instead of making me feel better he made me feel worse
i really don't know what to do or say
so what do you think about him?
should i give him a chance or i should leave'm for a while so he can learn from this lesson?
p.s
sorry for the weak accent :$